Feeling in a Rut

umbrella-resized-600The old adage, “April Showers Bring May Flowers” usually is only speaking to weather. But how I’ve been feeling this week so far, I must say that the adage goes much further than weather.

Have you ever felt like you’re going through the motions of life? Like your brain is totally turned off and you can’t find the light switch?

Work has been extra crazy this week and I’ve been busy, but somehow at the end of the day, I have no idea what I accomplished. And I’m honestly not sure if I’m doing what I love. I like what I do, but I don’t jump out of bed to go to work.

I’m in a funk. And I’m getting caught up in all the things I should be doing. Should I be having a baby? Should we buy a house even though we don’t know where we want to live? Should I have people reporting to me by now? Should I travel more?

I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others. I can only do me. I know my life is pretty amazing and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. But I can’t help feeling like there’s a gap, like I should be doing something else. Something more.

Now, I have no idea what that is. And I’m trying my best not to stress about it. Which is really hard for me because I’m the person who was planning college and high school and the real world during college. I’ve always had a plan. I’ve always stuck to the plan. I don’t have plan. And it’s scary. But I can’t help but think that the best things happen to you when you’re scared, when you jump into the unknown.

So, here’s to not knowing what you want to do with your life. To not having a plan. To focusing on the present and enjoying the moment.

Have you ever felt in a funk? How did you get out of it? Please tell me I’m not the only one.

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